Yet another update

[grim23]

This weekend I went to the Season Opener for the BIMC at Maryhill, and welcomed the sun for Summer Solstice. It was quite good, and then I went to a gun show, and then I went to my Grandmothers for a potluck, and then I rejected a house for rent. It's all good, actually. Next weekend? Crisis/Medical for Harmony Event Medicine for the Northwest String Summit.

I keep moving stuff to the Temporary Digs. The Goddess of Real Estate has not yet given me a House, but I may wait until there is more of a buyer's market to buy, and just rent. Internship questions are looming again, and this also is worth postponing buying an expensive house. Stay tuned.

I have accepted a teaching position at Willamette University to teach undergraduate students a class regarding the Psychology of Addiction in the Fall.

I have been training hard for Karatedo, and my belt test is tomorrow. I'm probably ready to test. Class tonight is a simulated test, and I'll know then. I'm nervous, but I can do this.

Work is going OK. No progress on my Dissertation.



What am I thinking about? Nici13 posted, in discordian fashion, in response to my post where I wrote that I will continue to hurt others for a long time unintentionally: "I believe everyone chooses their own pain, what may 'hurt' one person will not 'hurt' another. I believe I can choose an action that may not be in my best interest and conflict with another person's needs, but I can't 'hurt' them, that alone, is their choice". I'm still processing, but it works with some guilt and self-doubt that I have been experiencing that has been slowing me down. Thank you, representative of Malcolypse The Younger.

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[grim23]

Say Hey Volcanoes!

*big smiles*

[nici13.livejournal.com]

"Sometimes I take humor seriously. Sometimes I take seriousness humorously. Either way it is irrelevant."

Re: *big smiles*

[templeofgod.livejournal.com]

I saw her first!

**puffs out chest proudly**

She was my friend first!! I have good taste in friends! Happy dance! Happy dance!!

Re: *big smiles*

[grim23]

Beth:

You have great taste in friends. Hail Eris!

Love, Grim

Re: *big smiles*

[nici13.livejournal.com]

actually, I saw YOU first! :P
but i'm glad you let me hang around anyways :D

Re: *big smiles*

[grim23]

“Maybe you are just crazy.”

"We are all mad here..."

[nici13.livejournal.com]

I was dead, I became alive; I was weeping, I became laughing;
the power of love came, and I became everlasting power.
My eye is satiated, my soul is bold, I have the heart of a lion, I
have become shining Venus.
He said, "You are not mad, you are not appropriate to this
house"; I went and became mad, I became bound in shackles.
He said, "You are not intoxicated; go, for you belong not to
this party"; I went and became intoxicated, I became overflowing
with joy.
He said, "You are not slain, you are not drenched in joy";
before his life-giving face I became slain and cast down.
He said, "You are a clever little man, drunk with fancy and
doubt"; I became a fool, I became straightened, I became
plucked up out of all.
He said, "You have become a candle, the qibla of this assem-
bly"; I am not of assembly, I am not candle, I have become
scattered smoke.
He said, "You are shaikh and headman, you are leader and
guide"; I am not shaikh, I am not leader, I have become slave
to your command.
He said, "You have pinions and wings, I will not give you
wings and pinions"; in desire for his pinions and wings I became
wingless and impotent*.
New fortune said to me, "Go not on the way, do not become
pained, for out of grace and generosity I am now coming to you."
Old love said to me, "Do not move from my breast"; I said,
"Yes, I will not, I am at rest and remain."
You are the fountain of the sun, I am the shadow of the
willow; when You strike my head, I become low and melting.
My heart felt the glow of the soul, my heart opened and split,
my heart wove a new satin, I became enemy of this ragged one.
The form of the soul at dawn swaggered insolently; I was a
slave and an ass-driver, I became king and lord.
Your paper gives thanks for your limitless sugar, for it came
into my embrace, and I dwelt in it.
My darkling earth gives thanks for my bent sky and sphere,
for through its gaze and circling I became light-receiving.
The sphere of heaven gives thanks for king and kingdom and
angel, for through his generosity and bounty I have become
bright and bountiful.
The gnostic of God gives thanks that we have outraced all;
above the seven layers* I have become a shining star.
I was Venus, I became the moon, I became the two hundred-
fold sky; I was Joseph, henceforth I have become the waxing
Joseph*.
Famous moon, I am yours, look upon me and yourself, for
from the trace of your smile I have become a smiling rosegarden.
Move silently like a chessman, yourself all tongue, for through
the face* of the king of the world I have become happy and
blissful.



* "Impotent": i.e. "plucked clean of feathers."
* "The seven layers": the seven heavens.
* Joseph, after coming up from the well, waxed in beauty and
power.
* "The face": a pun on "rukh", which also means "rook".


Translation by A.J. Arberry
Mystical Poems of Rumi, 1
University of Chicago Press, March 1974

Re: "We are all mad here..."

[grim23]

"'But I don’t want to go among mad people,' Alice remarked. 'Oh, you can’t help that,' said the Cat. 'We’re all mad here. I’m mad. You’re mad.''How do you know I’m mad?' said Alice. 'You must be,” said the Cat. 'or you wouldn’t have come here.'"

AND she reads Rumi. Beth, you find good friends. *grin*

Good Luck with all that :)

[aurorawyndancer.livejournal.com]

Wishing you Luck and Blessings for ~

Your Belt test tomorrow, You will do great. Transform the nervousness into focused energy and nothing can hold you back *smiles*

The right house will come when the right moment occurs, renting is a good option when one must wait. Same goes for the Internship looming ;), Spirit sees more of the Path before you than any human can, have faith, They have great things planned for you.

Willamette University is lucky to have you, I'm sure you will be a fine teacher.

Guilt and self-doubt... definitely time to let them go. Ask yourself four questions...
Have I observed the actions and consequences?
Have I learned the lessons?
Have I applied the learning and achieved the wisdom of the experience?
Have I made Peace with all those involved, and with my own spirit?

If you can answer yes to all those questions... then there is no reason for guilt or doubt anymore. And from my limited perspective I think you probably have, or are close to it.

*hugs & Goddess Smiles*
~Aurora

Re: Good Luck with all that :)

[grim23]

Thank you, Your Majesty. :>

nipple dancing with all thoughts to you

[ms-pinkk.livejournal.com]

good thing none of my neighbors were paying attention I even found myself venturing outside into the warmth of the sun on my skin as I sent warmth love and strength, knowing and loving you ~ Good Luck butt you are always prepared to not need the counting on lucky only on yourself. *hugs & pinches* pinkk

Re: nipple dancing with all thoughts to you

[grim23]

Thank you, and thank you for the header. Every man dreams of getting a header like that, MS. Pinkk. *grin*

I am prepared, but I often rely on my Friends---because they are often stronger and wiser and more prepared than I am. :>

Love, Grim