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The Update
Sep. 7th, 2005 07:33 pm(1) The Fortress of Solitude continues to solidify. I have all major appliances, a functional study, a beautiful kitchen, but no shower doors as of yet, and stuff only in two other places besides the Fortress. I continue to be blessed by visits from healing visitors from my Temple Family, and lessons about loyalty and honor and unknowing boundaries being crossed were learned and reinforced. Previous visitors from the Family also continue to heal, and teach me in the process.
(2) I have been to the Pacific Ocean and the Santa Cruz Mountains, and have given my Oath to my Daimyo, appropriately attired. All is new, but there is the same love and honor. I cannot believe the participation from the Houses involved, and the Ceremony which solidified the Houses, and the golden lock which closed the circle. I will have many challenges from the House of The White Bull, and I will strive to flow, expend less energy, and manage my roles more effortlessly as the Alpha. I will earn a new Name.
(3) I continue to teach PSY 431-01, Psychology of Addictions, at Willamette University. My students don't really know what to make of me, yet. I want them to learn what's really important about helping people heal, and I want them to be able to critically think, write, and speak in a clinical context about people who need help. It's not about the power trip about grades, it's about communicating to young minds about substance dependence and judgment and bias and the reality of actually effectively helping to heal disease and disorder. These reasons (#1, #2, and #3) were much of why I did not go to BurningMan with the BF, even though I was saddened and frustrated about not going. I WILL be there next year.
(4) I have entered into a level of Commitment with Tamarta, after approval from her Protectors. Her brightness lights up my aura, my personality, and my Will. I will kill, lie, or die for her. She has received the seal of approval from Warriors, all of my Families, my Grandmothers, and the Best Friend. I publicly state that if you have a problem or a conflict with her, you have it with me. If she does something wonderful for or with you, a much more likely event, I'd like to know that as well. I'm grateful and proud of her, and I love her very much.
(5) Prairie Kittin is right. The Chaos Cycle has not yet ended, but is abating. The Fortress of Solitude has helped, as has Tamarta, as well has wise counsel from my Daimyo, my Sensei, my King, Ms. Pinkk, and others. The planned ending ritual for my Chaos...well, it didn't happen, due to Chaos. Big surprise. :> Work and school continue to roil in Chaos, and I work to subdue my fear of failure, and be present to listen and learn and teach and help heal. I train hard in the dojo, and teach and learn about Body and Mind and Emotion, creating Spirit.
Standing before the high-raised sword
You see Hell and tremble.
But step forward
And find the land of bliss.
~Miyamoto Musashi
(2) I have been to the Pacific Ocean and the Santa Cruz Mountains, and have given my Oath to my Daimyo, appropriately attired. All is new, but there is the same love and honor. I cannot believe the participation from the Houses involved, and the Ceremony which solidified the Houses, and the golden lock which closed the circle. I will have many challenges from the House of The White Bull, and I will strive to flow, expend less energy, and manage my roles more effortlessly as the Alpha. I will earn a new Name.
(3) I continue to teach PSY 431-01, Psychology of Addictions, at Willamette University. My students don't really know what to make of me, yet. I want them to learn what's really important about helping people heal, and I want them to be able to critically think, write, and speak in a clinical context about people who need help. It's not about the power trip about grades, it's about communicating to young minds about substance dependence and judgment and bias and the reality of actually effectively helping to heal disease and disorder. These reasons (#1, #2, and #3) were much of why I did not go to BurningMan with the BF, even though I was saddened and frustrated about not going. I WILL be there next year.
(4) I have entered into a level of Commitment with Tamarta, after approval from her Protectors. Her brightness lights up my aura, my personality, and my Will. I will kill, lie, or die for her. She has received the seal of approval from Warriors, all of my Families, my Grandmothers, and the Best Friend. I publicly state that if you have a problem or a conflict with her, you have it with me. If she does something wonderful for or with you, a much more likely event, I'd like to know that as well. I'm grateful and proud of her, and I love her very much.
(5) Prairie Kittin is right. The Chaos Cycle has not yet ended, but is abating. The Fortress of Solitude has helped, as has Tamarta, as well has wise counsel from my Daimyo, my Sensei, my King, Ms. Pinkk, and others. The planned ending ritual for my Chaos...well, it didn't happen, due to Chaos. Big surprise. :> Work and school continue to roil in Chaos, and I work to subdue my fear of failure, and be present to listen and learn and teach and help heal. I train hard in the dojo, and teach and learn about Body and Mind and Emotion, creating Spirit.
Standing before the high-raised sword
You see Hell and tremble.
But step forward
And find the land of bliss.
~Miyamoto Musashi
