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Goals/Life Update: Burning Man 2011
Sep. 19th, 2011 11:37 pmCompleted: 51/110
In progress: 20
Decompression has come slowly this year. It's been awhile since I've posted last. I'm almost back to speed.
Burning Man, this year, was less about a Rite of Passage, and more about witnessing and guiding others as they went through their Rites (#42). This year, I earned gift tickets with both the Rangers and with the ESD Mental Health crisis team. I worked hard, I played hard, and spent some time with friends I see once a year. There was no training; the Black Rock City Kwoon was on-playa, but circumstances denied me that opportunity.
Yes, I burned - with far less effort. There were less tears, more readiness to witness other's tears. There was less drinking, more eating (#66) as fuel. More teaching, different learning, more delegation and more doing (#79).
From my Ranger Notes: Parry's definition of a Warrior (#28) is of confronting the darker side of the self, when you are at your weakest, the most vulnerable ... and learning to be gentle with yourself. This year there was creation of safe spaces within and without, and conflict was allowed - you cannot have resolution without conflict. Conflict isn't safe - risks to find real peace have to happen. I was present, and let go of position. Being at the point of aloneness, one can be the new/potential self.
The lesson I learned the most, again this year: Wait! Allow the universe to feed you, you don't have to help. Do nothing, seek wisdom.
Ten memorable moments:
1. Being hammered with domestic violence/sexual assault calls. "Black Rock, CIT 41, responding to page at ...".
2. Green Dot Short - a six-hour Shift Lead shift that was supposed to be my 'ride-along' learn-the-ropes-shift led to three tactical situations on two radio channels, while ESD Medical, Rampart Ambulance, and Washoe County Sheriff Deputies are in Ranger Sanctuary - because I called them in.
3. Laminates: "My name is Grim. I do stuff. I am not in charge."
4. Watching the Burn and the Trojan Horse Burn on top of the Spikes Vampire Bar container with good friends.
5. Being the ESD MHB "Radio Fluffer" - teaching the new team members about the power and responsibility of their radio, and how to be both polite and professional on the air. Teaching breathing as part of radio communication.
6. Being a Ranger Fluffer, and being Fluffed. Nodding off with three other Rangers getting their feet taken care of and waking up alone in my chair an hour later.
7. Being a Green Dot Ranger Mentor, and watching my mentee at the Temple of Transition, crying and watching others grieve.
8. Returning to the Temple to write three Haiku (#69), after witnessing a Ranger/Jedi wedding. Crying again; not needing to see the Temple burn.
9. Being given both a Toaster Pin and a Shiny Penny pin for my Ranger hat, and walking the dirt with a brand-new Ranger.
10. Stick Duty with Ranger Hazelnut, the first of two Grave shifts with her - and knock-knock jokes at 5am.
In progress: 20
Decompression has come slowly this year. It's been awhile since I've posted last. I'm almost back to speed.
Burning Man, this year, was less about a Rite of Passage, and more about witnessing and guiding others as they went through their Rites (#42). This year, I earned gift tickets with both the Rangers and with the ESD Mental Health crisis team. I worked hard, I played hard, and spent some time with friends I see once a year. There was no training; the Black Rock City Kwoon was on-playa, but circumstances denied me that opportunity.
Yes, I burned - with far less effort. There were less tears, more readiness to witness other's tears. There was less drinking, more eating (#66) as fuel. More teaching, different learning, more delegation and more doing (#79).
From my Ranger Notes: Parry's definition of a Warrior (#28) is of confronting the darker side of the self, when you are at your weakest, the most vulnerable ... and learning to be gentle with yourself. This year there was creation of safe spaces within and without, and conflict was allowed - you cannot have resolution without conflict. Conflict isn't safe - risks to find real peace have to happen. I was present, and let go of position. Being at the point of aloneness, one can be the new/potential self.
The lesson I learned the most, again this year: Wait! Allow the universe to feed you, you don't have to help. Do nothing, seek wisdom.
Ten memorable moments:
1. Being hammered with domestic violence/sexual assault calls. "Black Rock, CIT 41, responding to page at ...".
2. Green Dot Short - a six-hour Shift Lead shift that was supposed to be my 'ride-along' learn-the-ropes-shift led to three tactical situations on two radio channels, while ESD Medical, Rampart Ambulance, and Washoe County Sheriff Deputies are in Ranger Sanctuary - because I called them in.
3. Laminates: "My name is Grim. I do stuff. I am not in charge."
4. Watching the Burn and the Trojan Horse Burn on top of the Spikes Vampire Bar container with good friends.
5. Being the ESD MHB "Radio Fluffer" - teaching the new team members about the power and responsibility of their radio, and how to be both polite and professional on the air. Teaching breathing as part of radio communication.
6. Being a Ranger Fluffer, and being Fluffed. Nodding off with three other Rangers getting their feet taken care of and waking up alone in my chair an hour later.
7. Being a Green Dot Ranger Mentor, and watching my mentee at the Temple of Transition, crying and watching others grieve.
8. Returning to the Temple to write three Haiku (#69), after witnessing a Ranger/Jedi wedding. Crying again; not needing to see the Temple burn.
9. Being given both a Toaster Pin and a Shiny Penny pin for my Ranger hat, and walking the dirt with a brand-new Ranger.
10. Stick Duty with Ranger Hazelnut, the first of two Grave shifts with her - and knock-knock jokes at 5am.
