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Jun. 16th, 2008 04:32 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
grim23It’s been two weeks since my last post; I’ve been rather busy – I’ve engaged in a lot of ritual with different people, gone on a couple of hikes, gone camping, given gifts of service, and continued training, working on my skills in ritual and being open to love. I’m healing. If I practice loving people for who they are, without conditions on that love, eventually I’ll be able to receive that from others. I don’t have to suffer the end of relationships – I’m the only one who can allow others to hurt me, and I get to make the decisions about who and how long I choose to be hurt. As the BF says, “it’s all about me.”
I’ll be busy most of the summer. I’m moving out with Phaedrus on July 15th, and I’ll be either moving in to the Fortress of Solitude or renting it out again July 1st. I’m leaving for Maui for a week over the 4th of July, and likely going to Denver for a week the end of July, and going to Burning Man the end of August. I seem to have less and less that holds me to Salem, excluding my practice. I’m ready for something else besides the yearly allergy and asthma attacks and rain.
I’m working on balance and body focus, both with my physical and tantric training. The Universe seems to be clearing away that which I’ve grown accustomed to, but wasn’t really working for me, and invoking that which I still fear most. Sienna recently wrote that one may attempt to create one's desires, only to recognize that it's manifesting one's fears. I’m running on faith and love that what’s supposed to happen will happen. I really have no say over my circumstance or others – just myself. I’m grateful for the options I do have, and I’m working to choose only that which serves.
I’ll be busy most of the summer. I’m moving out with Phaedrus on July 15th, and I’ll be either moving in to the Fortress of Solitude or renting it out again July 1st. I’m leaving for Maui for a week over the 4th of July, and likely going to Denver for a week the end of July, and going to Burning Man the end of August. I seem to have less and less that holds me to Salem, excluding my practice. I’m ready for something else besides the yearly allergy and asthma attacks and rain.
I’m working on balance and body focus, both with my physical and tantric training. The Universe seems to be clearing away that which I’ve grown accustomed to, but wasn’t really working for me, and invoking that which I still fear most. Sienna recently wrote that one may attempt to create one's desires, only to recognize that it's manifesting one's fears. I’m running on faith and love that what’s supposed to happen will happen. I really have no say over my circumstance or others – just myself. I’m grateful for the options I do have, and I’m working to choose only that which serves.
