Life/Goals Update
Sep. 26th, 2010 03:51 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
grim23No real progress, actually.
I find myself still recovering from the Burn. I'm socially isolating a bit, and I've lost strength, endurance, and speed. My running is slow, and I struggle to finish 100 pushups a day. I have less motivation, less drive, and less organization than usual. I have been training, and I am credited in the dojang with my usual level of training. However, I've got less speed and power, and senior students who I usually give a challenge are able to counter me more easily. In spite of this, or perhaps because of this, I was invited to test for my next belt rank in two weeks, and I am woefully underprepared.
I also have some financial challenges right now, but I have family and I have myself. My practice in New Braunfels ends October 18, and I am pursuing some leads on practices in the Austin area. My former tenant has not paid any rent in five months, and is not even communicating with me. Additionally, I do not think I will be able to travel, even for a weekend, for some time. I've canceled plans to visit Oregon in the near future and to attend the North Texas Regional Burn because I believe that our family is coming to a decision-point and that I will need to be available and fully present to be able to make some hard decisions.
This next weekend I will be taking my General Class Amateur Radio Exam (#109) at the Belton Hamfest, so I will be studying daily for that. My callsign has not yet been formally changed by the FCC, but it's pending. I was able to get my laptop hard drive replaced, so I'll be working on the huge backlog of emails and messages I've accumulated. I will be working with my new property management company, applying for jobs, pulling more stuff out of Ol' Number 3, paying bills as I can, and running and banging out pushups and forms to rebuild my strength and endurance reserves.
I know that everyone has cycles of training and growth and dormancy. I know that we all have levels of being at our peak and being at lows. I am patient with myself, and I am breathing through this - and it is, of course, helping. It is, really, the only way to overcome a low and the only way to reinforce a peak. I trust the Universe, and I'm ready again to take the leap of faith I will need to take to be stronger. Time to get started.
I find myself still recovering from the Burn. I'm socially isolating a bit, and I've lost strength, endurance, and speed. My running is slow, and I struggle to finish 100 pushups a day. I have less motivation, less drive, and less organization than usual. I have been training, and I am credited in the dojang with my usual level of training. However, I've got less speed and power, and senior students who I usually give a challenge are able to counter me more easily. In spite of this, or perhaps because of this, I was invited to test for my next belt rank in two weeks, and I am woefully underprepared.
I also have some financial challenges right now, but I have family and I have myself. My practice in New Braunfels ends October 18, and I am pursuing some leads on practices in the Austin area. My former tenant has not paid any rent in five months, and is not even communicating with me. Additionally, I do not think I will be able to travel, even for a weekend, for some time. I've canceled plans to visit Oregon in the near future and to attend the North Texas Regional Burn because I believe that our family is coming to a decision-point and that I will need to be available and fully present to be able to make some hard decisions.
This next weekend I will be taking my General Class Amateur Radio Exam (#109) at the Belton Hamfest, so I will be studying daily for that. My callsign has not yet been formally changed by the FCC, but it's pending. I was able to get my laptop hard drive replaced, so I'll be working on the huge backlog of emails and messages I've accumulated. I will be working with my new property management company, applying for jobs, pulling more stuff out of Ol' Number 3, paying bills as I can, and running and banging out pushups and forms to rebuild my strength and endurance reserves.
I know that everyone has cycles of training and growth and dormancy. I know that we all have levels of being at our peak and being at lows. I am patient with myself, and I am breathing through this - and it is, of course, helping. It is, really, the only way to overcome a low and the only way to reinforce a peak. I trust the Universe, and I'm ready again to take the leap of faith I will need to take to be stronger. Time to get started.
