Life/Goals Update

This week, there have been some unexpected and dismaying changes in relationships, and an ongoing and increasing concern about family stuff. Change indeed, Sienna. *smile* Life happens to us the hardest when we resist change and create expectations of others, and others have made very hard decisions that I respect and will abide by. It has always been my way to allow significant people in my life the opportunity to come and go as they please, and this is no exception.

Anger blinds us, and creates expectations in others that cannot possibly be attained. It sets others on a pedestal and also sets them up to fail, especially when there is the inevitable life changes and they cannot meet those expectations. As Sienna writes, "the problems come when we do not want change, when we cling to what is, hoping that it will never change. Other problems can arise when we press for change, when we try to direct it or make it happen faster than it naturally would occur." I've no time or interest in anger.

I've begun some of the work that I've not had the energy or time to do since I got to Texas. I'm also re-reading some of the books in my library (#28), and I took the day to organize and regroup my case files and my dayplanner, and dispose of a lot of clutter and unnecessary paper. Additionally, I have trained twice today, and I'm closer to being at least minimally proficient with the requirements for my next level in the dojang. I have six classes to attend to meet the minimum number to test. My sparring skills are back to my usual level, despite problems with my left hip and my right foot. I still need work with my new form and with my self-defense techniques, but both of those are improving.

I've posted this here before, but this is what the Universe has again put before me today:

The Warrior's Prayer (Stuart Wilde)

I am what I am.
In having faith in the beauty within me, I develop trust.
In softness I have strength.
In silence I walk with the gods.
In peace I understand myself and the world.
In conflict I walk away.
In detachment I am free.
In respecting all living things, I respect myself.
In dedication I honour the courage within me.
In eternity I have compassion for the nature of all things.
In love I unconditionally accept the evolution of others.
In freedom I have power.
In my individuality, I express the God-Force within me.
In service I give of what I have become.
I am what I am:
Eternal, immortal, universal, and infinite.
And so be it.