Goals/Life Update - Day 120/1001

“The liberator who destroys my property is fighting to save my spirit. The teacher who clears all possessions from my path will set me free.” ~ Chuck Palahniuk, Fight Club

Goals Completed: 3
Goals in Progress: 22

Since my last update, I have completed my juice fast (#15, #14) and the Bhakti to Shakti meditation in preparation for the Puja in November (#13, #22). I’m continuing the meditation with Bhoga to Shiva, and finishing with Bhakti to Shakti. I’m finally in less pain and have more energy. My eating and sleeping patterns, however, remain not acceptable (#16). Meditations have been difficult, and I have flashes of anger and a sense of burn-out.

The last two weeks I have trained, practicing Qi Qua (#10) and the Short and Long Forms (#1). There has been more work on the Iron Fan form, and that seems to be helping my anger and burnout. I’ve already trained Qi Qua, the Short Form, and the Iron Fan Form this week, and today I’ve added the Long Form to that list. I also found several of the 35MM# geocaching series, a supplemental goal.

Last week I made a mistake, and left things unsecured. The resulting break-in to my truck, and the possessions stolen, were heartbreaking. This has shaken my sense of confidence in my living situation, and my ability to respond in my safety and my security. I will rebuild and replace that which was lost, and it’ll be better and more effective. Karma, and kismet, will take care of the thieves.

With the weather changes, it’s time to add another goal to the in-progress list. I’ll be working on securing everything in Ol’ Number 3 (#69) for a 30-minute deployment, just in case. It’s supposed to be a warm winter, but I’d rather be prepared. This will help with my sense of security and safety. Additionally, I’m looking strongly at attending the Great Vow Zen Monastery Gratitude Sesshin, and living for a week there (#21) in November.