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Apr. 22nd, 2005 10:30 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
grim23OK. It has been pointed out that my journal has become, "that place where [I] go to convalesce by having the majority of your posting community fawn all over [me], tend to [my] wounds, stroke [my] ego and tell [me] what [I] want to hear"... but, as my broccoli friends point out, what would be the fun in that?
Right now, I'm about learning, especially about the not-so-pleasant aspects of me. I need to learn about how to interact with others better and deal with how people really think and feel about me. Honesty, not fawning. Community forum. No filters.
I've just posted a snapshot personality test, and my astrology chart, giving ample suggestions for ways I do and do not work within the Universe, not to discount your own experiences. Apparently there are those who do not feel comfortable in other forums, so...here it is. Fire away, both barrels. I will not judge you, or even reply, other than to say thank you for the input, unless you request it. I will consider everything that's written, and try to incorporate it into my future Life.
Thank you for your time.
Right now, I'm about learning, especially about the not-so-pleasant aspects of me. I need to learn about how to interact with others better and deal with how people really think and feel about me. Honesty, not fawning. Community forum. No filters.
I've just posted a snapshot personality test, and my astrology chart, giving ample suggestions for ways I do and do not work within the Universe, not to discount your own experiences. Apparently there are those who do not feel comfortable in other forums, so...here it is. Fire away, both barrels. I will not judge you, or even reply, other than to say thank you for the input, unless you request it. I will consider everything that's written, and try to incorporate it into my future Life.
Thank you for your time.
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Date: 2005-04-24 06:37 pm (UTC)A few observations from Outside.
You seek to become silk-wrapped iron, but this is brittle and a poor tool. Eastern Warrior philosophy warns against being the unbending oak that breaks in a strong wind; rather, it suggests bamboo, which bends to the wind and rebounds to stand another day.
Also like the Zen story of the prospective Student visiting the Master. When the Master pours tea, and the cup overflows, the Student protests. The Master states the Student’s mind is like the cup – already full and overflowing. You must empty your cup and start anew.
You use Chaos as a shield. You wrap it around yourself when convenient; e.g., when a relationship or an obligation is becoming burdensome to you. It becomes a convenient excuse to run people off. But you rarely directly run them off. Instead, you neglect the relationship until they leave, and then comfort yourself that they left you. You are intelligent and strong-willed enough that you could take control of your life anytime you wanted to and eliminate chaos from you life; instead, you choose to wield Chaos as a weapon.
You do use power dynamics to intimidate, but you do so in a stealthy manner. You use both magical energy and martial arts energy (e.g., Chi or Ki) to project and push at people to make them uncomfortable and back off; this is why people for your performance review stated they were uncomfortable but were unable to give exact instances. This shows you can use and project energy well; think what other, more productive, opportunities you could use it for.
Best wishes