An update

[grim23]

The leg is healing; I can at least kneel. I train, learn, forget, and teach. All of my clients have lived, and only two went to jail. I am moving away from my Samhain-related moods. I have been discussing and consulting with the Queen about Samhain and the Tao, and helping the King with his Journey, which seems to be helping me. Dissertation. No internship. Money. My Little Girl is healthier physically, but very anxious about her studying and her relationship with me, although I have taken steps to clarify expectations and priorities with her. The BF is in a better headspace, I think. I'm cleaning out files and piles of unnecessary paper at work, and making space for a new adventure. Phaedrus continues to be well, and my class at Willamette is going well. The Fortress of Solitude is almost complete, although shower doors and curtains are again delayed.

This weekend, I'm taking care of myself, and performing much mindful meditation, and visiting my Sister and The Diamyo. The last time I arrived, I helped with a spaghetti dinner for 50 with no notice. This time, a turkey dinner for 55. I peel potatoes, clean kitchen and bathroom, chop wood, carry water. It's nice to be in a relationship where the roles are clear, and expectations are known, and the stress is lower. Tonight I have a birthday party for a man I greatly respect, who takes care of my Sister, then after dinner drinks with the Master of the Temple. Tomorrow, I spend with my Sister.

I breathe.

"A test of what is real is that it is hard and rough. Joys are found in it, not pleasure. What is pleasant belongs to dreams." Simone Weil (1897-1962, French Philosopher and mystic)




EDIT: I actually got to spend less time with my Sister than planned, but enjoyed the time we did have. And, I was unable to have after dinner drinks with the Master of the Temple, unfortunately. I'm sure that we will connect soon. :>

Comments

Yes

[voluptasia.livejournal.com]

The BF's headspace is better. Although a little cloudy from a 12:15 am pickup at PDX. I'm glad you had a good visit, though. =)

::support:: always,

BF

Re: Yes

[grim23]

All Hail the BF, who drove me to and from PDX, at very inconvenient times, tucked me into bed and got me up in time for work, and provided excellent aftercare the entire time!

I am very grateful for everything you do. I love you for your support, and your courage, and for being you.

Love, Grim

[tigresssky.livejournal.com]

What happened to the leg? *confuzzled, concerned*

Glad other areas seem to be progressing positivly and still offering you challenges. Especially the challenges of relationships, the most beautiful and rewarding challenge of all.

~Tiggy~

[grim23]

I tore a muscle during warmups with a young, inexperienced Sempai, the disadvantage of being the 'Giant in the Land of Midgets' in the dojo. I'm glad its better, as it's important that I at least be able to kneel when I see the Daimyo. :>

Or, in other words, "If you want to kiss the sky, better learn how to kneel - on your knees boy!"

Gwimster