What's on my mind
May. 28th, 2007 10:55 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
grim23I went to the local Masonic lodge, and watched a member of another Lodge get 'black-balled' for affiliation, even though he already belongs to another Lodge. I've never seen that happen before, and I was not allowed to vote as I'm not a part of that Lodge, so I was just an observer - but there was a part of my Masonic ideals that were shaken. That vote should never have happened, and there was no reason for him to be blackballed other than fear and pride and prejudice - which Masons have sworn to never allow in dealings with each other.
I'm getting my midterm Internship evaluation this week - and I'm growing quite disillusioned with JUH, as well, and my evaluation may reflect that disillusionment. JUH hasn't provided the heavy neuropsychological testing experience I was hoping for - instead I'm doing the things I'm already proficient with (substance groups and psychotherapy), and not being as challenged. Fortunately, I'm quite challenged at UNC with that. *smile*.
Tam and I have talked. Our relationship continues, although I'm not clear about our future. For that matter, I'm unclear about my future. Please stand by, while I wait for the Universe.
I went to a social last night, and had a marvelous time. My local relationships have moved more or less from the storming phase and have moved to the norming phase, and they worked more or less well together to create a surprise for me with a harem tent, turkish coffee, and fine arabic delicacies, all without much of my knowledge. They worked well together most of the night, although there were a few crises. I can and did effortlessly spend energy performing sword kata and and hyung, and I can spend energy in other ritual, but that combined with but healing and stabilizing energy in others left me drained and shaky at the end of the night after a 14-hour day. I slept well and safely for about nine hours, ate a marvelous breakfast, and enjoyed some light swimming and walking, and recovered well, but still went to bed early.
I have to work on this. I have a midterm-exam to work on. I may need more time in meditation, and more time training, and more work unloosening knots.
I'm getting my midterm Internship evaluation this week - and I'm growing quite disillusioned with JUH, as well, and my evaluation may reflect that disillusionment. JUH hasn't provided the heavy neuropsychological testing experience I was hoping for - instead I'm doing the things I'm already proficient with (substance groups and psychotherapy), and not being as challenged. Fortunately, I'm quite challenged at UNC with that. *smile*.
Tam and I have talked. Our relationship continues, although I'm not clear about our future. For that matter, I'm unclear about my future. Please stand by, while I wait for the Universe.
I went to a social last night, and had a marvelous time. My local relationships have moved more or less from the storming phase and have moved to the norming phase, and they worked more or less well together to create a surprise for me with a harem tent, turkish coffee, and fine arabic delicacies, all without much of my knowledge. They worked well together most of the night, although there were a few crises. I can and did effortlessly spend energy performing sword kata and and hyung, and I can spend energy in other ritual, but that combined with but healing and stabilizing energy in others left me drained and shaky at the end of the night after a 14-hour day. I slept well and safely for about nine hours, ate a marvelous breakfast, and enjoyed some light swimming and walking, and recovered well, but still went to bed early.
I have to work on this. I have a midterm-exam to work on. I may need more time in meditation, and more time training, and more work unloosening knots.
