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grim23Some weeks are more challenging. My lesson: more awareness about responsibilities that I believed were taken care of but were not. Gi (Rectitude or Uprightness) as a consequence of being honorable and honest seems to especially apply. As we rarely use the term, the virtue of rectitude is somewhat difficult to grasp for western minds. The term not only suggests the honorability it seems to, but also implies that doing the honorable thing is difficult. Someone who is displaying rectitude is not only acting honorably, but is also willing to suffer the consequences of acting honorably. There seems to be some concern among some people that I don’t honor my commitments. I welcome that discussion.
Chu Gi (Loyalty) also applies. After getting to visit Phaedrus, I’ve learned that he’s healthy and happy – but expensive to maintain. He’s lost “half a step”, and has tightly controlled acute feline diabetes, and decisions about his medical care and putting him down are now an issue. I have a responsibility to take care of him. I now owe quite a bit of unexpected debt. He’s my cat. I’ll probably be moving in after the holidays and helping provide care and coming up with money to get him the insulin and medical care he needs, and most likely not going to be able to travel as much until he passes, which may not be more than a year or two. Also, a longtime friend that has been a strong support for me is again in the hospital, and he may be dying. His wife and children are asking for support. He’s a brother Mason, and a friend. I also have a responsibility, both Masonic and otherwise, to be there for them, as best I can.
Yu (Courage) is also on my mind. Tam and I have been working on enhancing our relationship, and much process is happening, but I believe it’s moving forward. She’s my Beloved. I’ll be seeing her and working on that this weekend, and providing more of the structure she wants. At the same time, I’ll be moving away from the Middle Chamber this month, and moving boxes yet again this weekend, even though it’s not clear where I’ll be moving them. I’m running lean. I’ve got bills coming due I’m not sure I can pay. My truck needs work. This is the time when I have to have faith in the Universe.
Chu Gi (Loyalty) also applies. After getting to visit Phaedrus, I’ve learned that he’s healthy and happy – but expensive to maintain. He’s lost “half a step”, and has tightly controlled acute feline diabetes, and decisions about his medical care and putting him down are now an issue. I have a responsibility to take care of him. I now owe quite a bit of unexpected debt. He’s my cat. I’ll probably be moving in after the holidays and helping provide care and coming up with money to get him the insulin and medical care he needs, and most likely not going to be able to travel as much until he passes, which may not be more than a year or two. Also, a longtime friend that has been a strong support for me is again in the hospital, and he may be dying. His wife and children are asking for support. He’s a brother Mason, and a friend. I also have a responsibility, both Masonic and otherwise, to be there for them, as best I can.
Yu (Courage) is also on my mind. Tam and I have been working on enhancing our relationship, and much process is happening, but I believe it’s moving forward. She’s my Beloved. I’ll be seeing her and working on that this weekend, and providing more of the structure she wants. At the same time, I’ll be moving away from the Middle Chamber this month, and moving boxes yet again this weekend, even though it’s not clear where I’ll be moving them. I’m running lean. I’ve got bills coming due I’m not sure I can pay. My truck needs work. This is the time when I have to have faith in the Universe.
