The final Internship Update, for a year...

[grim23]

My armour is gone, and I cannot lift my swords anymore. That battle is over, at least for this season.

I did not get the position. I fought the best that I could, and I'll find out in a couple of days why I didn't get the internship. I have to have faith that there was a reason. The Best Friend is concerned my ego structure (from JIC) was becoming an egg, as opposed to a honeycomb with multiple structural integrity, and that one blow would destroy everything. On reflection, and rereading my journal, I can see how see one would think that. This would be that blow, and if it were true, I'd be an omelet. Does it hurt? Yes. Will I lay down and die? Never.



Now? New, better armour. A new sword, called Dissertation. A new perspective. A new home, new relationships, new roles. The Dark Samurai must heal himself, and train more---become faster, harder, and more efficient. I must become silk-wrapped iron, give up even more Self, and take care of business. It's time to heal others, time to lead others, time to serve. Time to make my baby howl, scraping pegs, wind burning my eyes at 88mph in a tight sweeper. Time to finish cutting away that which doesn't serve, and cut away chains holding me back. There is no time for anything that hesitates, doesn't engage life, that doesn't teach.

Enough. Time to go forward and learn.



Live as if you were to die tomorrow. Learn as if you were to live forever.
----Gandhi

Comments

Since we are all doing metaphors...

[templeofgod.livejournal.com]

Onw of the best things I learned from my Sensei is that if you approch someone with the energy of expecting to get attacked, they will most likely attack you. It's also applicable to dealing with animals, and in truth, life in general.

On a more practical note: You DID say you were probably over qualified. So why do you want a job that doesn't suit your skills or challenge you? How can you learn from such an environment?

And on an even more practal note: I know how good you are at your job :) And I know that you don't do your job the way most people would do your job. So mabye you need a job unlike that which most people have.....

Oh and,

SMOOCH!

Re: Since we are all doing metaphors...

[grim23]

The internship process is very adverserial, but there are many battles on many levels that I have been fighting, not just this one. I want an internship simply because it's the last stage in the PsyD process---my education has very little to do with my learning. :> You're very right about my non-traditionalness.

Smmoch back to you,
Grim