An update

[grim23]

There is some concern that I am very angry at people. In fact, my Sister, and my Best Friend, the King, and other Warriors have been checking in with me about that. I certainly deserve to be angry, and recent events over the last month have been very stressful, but anger would simply get in the way. Instead, I breathe. I strive to reduce anger (which masks fear) head on without judgment, and overcome the chaos which has perpetuated my recent life. I am trying to demonstrate the self-discipline and training I know I have. I will meet with Chaos tonight, and it will end.

In other news, I have sold my Sanctum Sanctorum, and I no longer have a Seneschal. I had found a replacement Sanctorum, but my offer was not accepted. I am homeless, but not houseless. I am still actively looking, and I will probably be moving to transition housing very soon. I will be storing what little stuff I have, and sleeping on a futon, and living a very simple existence. I welcome it.

I will be testing for my purple belt 6/22. I am spending considerable time in the dojo to prepare. This is good for my body, and my mind, and my spirit.

I will be increasing my administrative hours at work, and I will need to find other times with which to write my dissertation. I will be able to concentrate more, and focus more on what is really important in my life.

Comments

Anger that isn't anger

[ms-pinkk.livejournal.com]

We all need to fear something and anger is an easy thing to not allow ourselves. Not that you should get caught up in it or let it distract you from your tasks. I found dwelling in the anger just made me even less able to deal with the fear though. Silly how we fear what we know we should do. It's like beating our heads into the wall ~ until somebody else stops us for the wrong reasons, because they can't handle watching us bleed. I hope your doing well, while pounding your head you may shake something loose. I love you and feel for your homelessness, and the loss of the Seneschal as well. Wishing you well on the 22nd ~ I'll do a special nipple dance, hey you never know...giggles and love Pinkk

Re: Anger that isn't anger

[grim23]

*nod*

You ALWAYs make me think.

Love, Grim